Long winded .

I read my posts that wre like 2 years ago and Im sitting here laughing like gila. I cant believe I could be so fickle minded last time, so childish. And now Ive realised my mistakes. I dont really learn from my mistakes. I just choose not to do or repeat that mistake. So yeah, here I am doing nothing. Just trying to fill up this post with some random thoughts that goes through my mind. I get weird dreams recently. Not the type that freaks me out, but the type that makes me think about my friends. My online friends, that Ive never seen or meet before. Haha. Strange, but true. Pelik tapi benar. Im still fasting, trying to be a healthy Muslim. And Im just dying this past few days, waiting for this fasting month to end. Cause Hari Raya is also around the corner. By the way, Ive got to find something therapeautic, so Im able to destress or escape from reality for a short moment. Have you ever felt this feeling of blank-ness? Like totally blank? I mean, sitting around, not thinking of anything. Just staring to blank space. I dont know whats so good about that, but it makes me somehow sleepy. And hypnotized. I may be a little contradicting, but Im just staring at my keyboard right now, just typing away what I feel like typing. so dont mind any sentence fragments or meaningless phrases, cause im typing for the fun of it. This may be boring, but oh well. By the way, I feel like making this post a long one. So im waiting for bby's msg. I miss her so much. And she's busy, and Im busy, so we dont really have time to meet up. Oh well, she know's deep inside her heart that she loves me. Okay so next, Ive been listening to Hari Raya songs, and it makes me feel excited. Adrenaline rush yknw. Makes the whole vibe change, even when im in the bedroom and everything looks awfully the same. Dont assume that it looks awful. It just looks, normal. So paying attention in class is a norm to me, and I really need to pay attention even more. Maybe gouge my eyes out, yeah. Haha, whatever. (Does bimbotic action)
Clive and most of the boys are trying to be bimbotic. They're influenced by me. Not saying I am, but I just act bimbotic. For the fun of it. You know, thrill. Hahaha. Okay Im hearing someone opening the door. I got to go. Bye.
I love you Ayay. <3