Soo Yazsar ?

My emotions are really mixed up now. Im happy for my friends, for the good things in life. Im scared for what might be faced in the future. Im just to young to see people suffer, especially my loved ones. I need to meet them, really. Im sad right now, thats because I dont really have a proper birthday celebration. Well, for some people, or most, they dont even know when's my birthday. And this is not the place to tell. Seriously, im not advertising or anything. Im excited, cause im going to KL soon. Im lonely, thats cause I dont really have a friend to love, you know. A friend to express my feelings for. You know, a girlfriend. Even my teacher was surprised just now. He asked me, ' Soo, Yazsar, do you have a girlfriend? '
And frankly, I said no. He was like 'Gasp' and his eyes were like '0.0'
Eventhough I sometimes do say that I dont intend to have one, its just that I dont feel I have anyone special right now. So, yes, I said I didnt want to find one. Surely 'the one' will stumble apon me sooner or later.
Later? The question is, how later?
I do hope not too late.
Lately, Im really treasuring my life. Treasuring the people around me.
Its just that right now, I dont know the outcome of my life. Will tomorrow ever come? What if tomorrow never comes?